Everyday

Every day it's a new struggle to hold on for something I feel is slipping further and further away. I get scared that little fights will turn into big ones. That small arguments will escalate and result in different fights, the ones that are being hidden behind the small pet peeves. Things have been so stressed lately and it just drives me crazy. I'm not only juggling school with life, but throw in my sorority problems, my relationship problems and every other little thing in between. It's so hard to manage. I'm so happy that this stupid probation is almost over, that I won't be treated like a little kid in time out anymore. And I'm hoping this summer will actually be fun...I'm starting to doubt what it'll be like. I'm scared for when he leaves, going from the beginning of August until the end of November till I see him might be extremely hard on us. It's only been a month since we last saw each other and I already feel like it's ripping us apart. Long distance is a whole different kind of relationship, and I'm not sure if we're the kind of people who can handle it...

What do you do?

What do you do when you feel like everything you've worked for is falling apart?

Eddie Izzard, Star Wars, and....English class??

My Revisions class (fancy name for English 102) is very interesting sometimes. My teacher sometimes has a weird way of approaching different topics in class. The class is based on the concept of rhetoric and communication, and right now we're working on our final project. We're writing research essays that are analyzing a speech and so we're talking a lot about format, audience, and presentation.

Today she tells us we're watching Youtube videos and she puts this one on:



After it's done, we're all wondering what the hell Star Wars and comedy (at this point most don't realize it's Eddie Izzard) have to do with writing a research paper, PowerPoint presentations (which was the topic in class today), or even rhetoric. So she puts on this one (FYI: It's the same sketch, just a different way of presenting it, you may/may not want to watch it all again, but it is funny):



Now we're kinda getting. Alright, same sketch, different presentation, kinda makes sense. Most people still don't know that it's Eddie Izzard, because not many people know who he is. Then she shows us this one:




Then asks us why she showed the vidoes. Her point was pretty much how presentation can affect how it comes across. We talked about how watching the first two videos and knowing nothing about Izzard's stand-up comedy you wouldn't expect this tranny to be the one making the jokes (where's they nerdy comic book loving geek?) So she ended up making a cool point about how presentation means a lot and such. And I also got a good laugh, AND remembered how much I LOVE Eddie Izzard.


Now...to get my hands on a copy of Season 1 of "The Riches." Help anyone??



PS: I hope these vidoes made you laugh.

Sometimes....

Sometimes I think...

• I worry too much
• I focus too much on the future
• I'm too impatient
• I don't speak my mind when I should
• I get scared of what might happen
• I talk too much, but never do anything about it
• I worry too much of what the future holds
• I complain too much without doing anything about it
• I take my friends for granted
• I don't focus enough on what's important
• I focus too much on stuff that doesn't matter
• I lack motivation

I've got so much going on inside my head right now and it's so hard to get things straight. And I even think I'm too afraid to vent here because of what might come of what people see. I know I could make a private post just for me, but I feel like all my thoughts would still be running around inside of me. I looked at post secret today and I started thinking of the things I would send in for the world to know, without knowing it came from me. I had a lot to say I realized.

I picked up information about studying for my graduate degree in Australia today. The school wouldn't give me what I want in the long run, but now it's got me thinking about pursing my degree in another country. There's one thing that holds me back. And I don't think I'd ever do it because of that one thing...It's got me thinking. But, I have another two full years before I have to start applying to schools. Who knows where I'll be then. Maybe by 2011 it won't be a huge deal to study on the other side of the world....