I love you more than yesterday...but not as much as tomorrow

That song, as well as "I'm a Believer" the one from Shrek have been playing over and over in my mind alllll day long, especially now. Of course, it helps that I've heard them both today, the latter being more than once...

I found myself crawling into my bed after an amazing past two hours, found there was no way I was getting to sleep without proclaiming to my blog how undeniably in love I am at this very moment. I swear, sometimes the best thing is just laying in a bed for two hours and talking about everything. It doesn't happen super often, and it's definitely something that can not be forced as much as I enjoy it occurring. I love lying there talking about the things on my mind and hearing the opinion of the person I love most. It reminds me of the reasons I'm madly in love with him. It reminds me of how confusing love is, and how it's a continuous effort by both parties. We have joyful, sad, meaningful, and productive topics that in the end just strengthen us. It's during this time we discuss fears, apprehensions, and things that weigh us down whether it be about our relationship or just our lives in general (apart and together). And we also discuss the things that make us happy, excited, and thankful. Our conversations can go from making me worry to making me so sure of my current path in life within minutes. But, no matter how many hard topics come up, I always walk away happy and completely in love.

Sometimes, it's so hard to accept that meaningful, lasting relationships take work. Especially when the "I'm always happy and totally in love" stage fades and the real relationship develops. It's hard to think that in just over two months my boyfriend will be headed to North Carolina to start a new life for himself, one that doesn't have me close by. But, I remind myself that we're always just a phone call away even if seeing each other isn't possible. It also makes me look toward the postives, North Carolina is going to be a great place to visit, and is a great school that I may one day find myself at. It reminds me how much work a relationship takes and how long distance can take it's toll, but in the end if it's worth fighting for you will. I can't imagine my life being any different or being with anyone else. And although he'll be leaving soon and we'll be twice the distance apart I won't stop fighting to keep my relationship going strong. And it's night's like tonight that remind me of that. They remind me of the reasons I keep fighting.

All in all, I love the feeling of being in love. I love the goofy smile I get when I'm so happy. I love the bubbly, playful side he brings out in me. I love his ridiculous sense of humor, no matter how much I pretend I don't. I love his logical side and his optimism. He's my opposite, my supporter, and my foundation. He counteracts my negativity, he shows me the positive sides to things. He shows me the logic and rational decisions, and I show him how to follow his heart. We're great for each other because we offere differences to fill in the blanks in each other's personalities.

And now I'm rambling...

I just knew I couldn't fall asleep without expressing how I felt to "someone." I go to sleep now hoping that tomorrow will bring the same happy feelings.